a different kind of addiction

things are getting better and better each day since I got here.. day by day I gain friends and the feeling of "acceptance" though we’re from different race with exactly different culture.. it’s flattering pag narerecognize yung efforts mo that makes you strive further and work harder.. so far i have this feeling that I have done & still doing something worthy for my workplace..

ang bilis ng araw.. imagine 8 months na ko dito and it feels kadadating ko pa lang.. but when I’m homesick it feels like ive been here all my life and I cant breathe.. lam mo yun, yung parang you wont survive for another day.. so whenever i feel that way, madali lang solution, take a taxi and go to Ariana Hotel.. there’s a Filipino Band there na friends ko na kasi naman lagi akong adun.. average ng 3 times a week.. adik di ba.. yeah its not practical but its the only way to deal with boredom & homesick.. ang sarap kayang makipag usap sa mga taong nakaka relate syo.. im fed up talking sa mga plastic na tao & users.. ilang users na ba gumamit sakin? hmnnn.. at least nakatulong ako & it really doesnt bother me.. i learned to be civil sa mga nangyayari.. accept and let go na lang kumbaga wala ka namang choice eh..

Going back to the topic, i just learned few hours ago that there’s another Pinoy band here performing at Yeungnam Hotel, so ayun, tonight i’ll be there.. but not alone.. my co-profs invited me to eat raw beef.. as in hilaw na baka then punta ng Yeungnam Hotel to see the band.. bait nila noh.. they always want to make me feel special.. imagine igala ka for free na all expenses paid pa.. not just once, twice but as much as possible, they want it every weekend.. ive been to several good places here.. kaya im so thankful dito ako napadpad.. while some pinoys here are working 12 hours a day in a place not conducive for working, im comfortably working 15 hours a week.. haaay kaka-adik lahat.. what else can you ask for? kulang pa rin eh.. wala dito yung mga mahal ko sa buhay.. but it made me realize one thing: that your family will still be on your side even when the whole world turn their backs on you.. it made me feel guilty kasi my family was my last priority when i was in Pinas..