a night of bliss…

i was having fun with my student-friends and with love when i got a call from my dean.. he told me to go to his office asap, ang siste nito nasa ibang lugar kami and it’s still office hours so ayun may wheels naman si sunghyun kaya madali kaming nakabalik.. inintay lang namin makasakay ng taxi si love pauwi sa kanila then pumunta na ko sa office ng dean with jungwon.. when i got there, he told me that he wants to invite me to watch a christmas concert & yun na ang regalo nya sakin.. damn ang mahal ng ticket kaya for sure maganda yun.. so at 7pm pumunta na kami sa venue.. it was big, 2000 seater auditorium and andun kami sa sponsor’s seat..

kahit sa pinas mahilig akong manood ng concert but i never imagined myself watching philippine philharmonic orchestra and madrigal choir - korean version nga lang hahaha. it started exactly on-time with a dance number.. light yung feeling and damn ang galing ng harmony nila.. very uplifting para kang lumulutang sa ulap while listening to them.. gustong kong umiyak sa tuwa, gusto kong umiyak kasi tamang homesick pero jolly yung kanta.. haay im really thankful sa bossing ko.. nung ihatid nya ako sa haus, wala akong nasabi kundi "thank you, i’ll miss you when i go back to philippines.. take care of your health.."

and now im updating my blog.. that experience is truly a lot more better than sex hahaha..

during my stay here, the past two weeks ang pinaka enjoy.. dun ko naramdaman na ang daming makakamiss sakin sa pag-alis ko.. na halos ayaw na akong pauwiin.. merong mas praning pa sakin sa pag-alis ko.. and now, yung mga kasama ko kanina, sinusundo na naman ako para dun matulog with them sa jim-jil-bang.. it’s a public sauna where in you can do a lot of stuffs bawal lang mag sex hahaha.. gtg!

clueless

ano ba toh? kani-kanina lang ako nahiga and yet gising na ulit ako.. madilim pa ang paligid pero dilat na ako and minsan lang mangyari toh! yeah i should be happy kc ilang tulog na lang uuwi na ako but looking on a bigger picture - it’s a self-torture kasi babalik pa rin ako dito and alam kong pagbalik ko, it will take me at least a year to see them again..

katatapos lang ng finals last december 9. last night, we had this thanks-giving celebration for professors. yun ang gusto ko sa kanila kasi they never failed to appreciate the efforts of professors. im happy na rin na inspite of language barrier, there are students na napamahal na rin sakin. they are happy that i’ll spend christmas in philippines pero kita sa muka nila yung sincerity na nalulungkot sila ‘coz they cant spend the holidays with me. ako na yung nagsasabing "hello, 1 buwan lang ako sa pinas?!" maraming silang planned activities pagbalik ko like visiting other cities, skiing, of course inuman. i dont know, im not excited.

ewan ko ba, everything seems to be incomplete, but dont get me wrong kasi i’m well treated here. during weekdays puno lagi ang office ko ng makukulit na students. during weekends naman, i usually spend it with my officemates till past midnight. halos wala na nga akong private time. students always tell me that they like me but they hate english. im teaching computer subject but i have to deliver the lesson in english kaya mahirap for them.

the other day, dun ko nakitang halos lahat ng students eh nag aagawan ng time para makausap ako. i heard a lot of i love you’s and thank you’s. kahit na imperfect english ramdam ko ang sincerity. i never mentioned before pala that they never failed to say thank you to me pagkakatapos ng class namin. sweet noh.

ayan, sumisikat na si haring araw. few hours from now, i’ll go to downtown with jung-won and jung-il eh ilang oras pa lang nung last kaming magkita.. haaay ang hirap.. i like everything here but i want to stay in philippines.. or homesick lang ako?! ewa, i’m clueless!