ghost of the past

well well well, lahat naman tayo may dark pasts or let say a not so good experience.. a not so good relationship with other people - maybe conflict, misunderstandings and the like.. ewan ko ba, no matter how hard you try to avoid the people involved in that situation, faith has it’s own way to bring back people together & hopefully put an end to an unfinished business.. awkward, its really awkward if you’re dealing with people who has connection to people from a dark past.. how i wish im not affected, and why should i be affected in the first place? tapos na yun di ba? talo tayo pareho or fine mejo lamang pa ako but that doesnt make me proud ’till now.. both of us were able to moved on, we’re living our own lives now, but why the hell am i blunging right now?! guilt? maybe.. or am i just paranoid? whatever, i just wish that all of these are not planned against me.. we’ve been on the same road before, i salute you for being so strong and for accepting defeat.. if it has to happen again,  im always ready.. if you’re not ready please back off ‘coz i no longer want to cause pain of any sort to anyone.. but if it’s pride you’re fighting for and you’re certain of what you’re doing, then gather your defenses ‘coz i’m more than prepared than ever and loosing is not in my vocabulary.

difficult, sad, and frustrating…

living alone and being away from your family is extremely difficult but sometimes inevitable ‘coz benefits of working abroad is something that our country cannot give to us.. the least thing i can do is to surf the net about the latest news in my beloved country, but to my dissapointment, most of those are dreadful news - sad plight of my fellow kababayans..

the wowowee tragedy that only initiated pointing fingers.. some are even taking advantage of the situation to pull down the abscbn management.. bat di na lang magtulungan di ba.. some even wished they died to get the same benefits alloted to the family of victims.. *deep breathe* we cannot blame if some of us are that desperate to be well-off like the others..

it’s good to know that peso is getting stronger against u.s. dollar pero bakit tuloy ang pagtaas ng prices ng ibat-ibang merchandise? and the pressence of regulated vat? di ba kayang i-compensate yun sa pagtaas ng piso? if i will make an analogy, parang "hoy lumaki ang kita ng company kaya babawasan ka namin ng sweldo" it’s that ironic..

the news are very frustrating and to make it worst, pasok ka ng philippine chatroom - puro murahan.. pasok ka ng philippine threads - puro pagalingan.. kay pacquiao lang nagkasundo - di naman pwedeng araw-araw may laban yung tao.. kaya tuloy minsan parang ayoko ng makaalam ng news jan.. mas exciting pang mag browse ng porn site..

hay, sorry to unleash my burdens here.. homesick lang at walang magawa.. but if you’ll think deeply, for sure you’ll ask yourself "bakit nga kaya? and will there be a brighter tomorrow?"

wala lang. emote lang. gandang hapon sa lahat.