virus infected…

almost 1am na naman dilat pa rin ako.. few minutes ago moka asked me "what’s the matter with you?" lagi raw kasi akong di nakakatulog ng maaga, simple lang sagot ko sa kanya "marami lang akong iniisip" and now, i’ll be bold enough to spill everything…

i promised myself that by saturday morning, i’ll start a new life.. to start with, friday night, ’twas the first time i watched movie alone.. tried to do everything on my own.. intentionally ignored the help offered to me.. bought a lot of stuffs.. changed curtains to an elegant one, put floor carpet, a lot of house decors that will give my pad a mixture of mediterranean and pacific look.. i was successful in doing drastic changes in my pad.. night comes and moka arrived, pinapasok ko naman.. di pa pala solid ang changes na gagawin ko.. it was a long saturday night until finally, we decided to sleep around 5am.. kita ko na ang korona ni haring araw..

with no one disturbing me, i woke up exactly 1:36pm. dang! am supposed to go to Filipino church at 2pm so ginising ko si moka ask ko kung possible pa kaya kaming umabot kahit alam kong negative na kasi di pa kami naglu-lunch.. so we decided na wag na lang tumuloy, next sunday na lang kami simba.. di pa ako nakakasimba sa Pinoy church eh morethan a year na ako dito.. anyway it’s not surprising.. what bothers me was the thought im thinking when my mind opened this afternoon though half of my body was still sleeping.. naisip ko lang, im on my lates 20s already, working hard.. but for what? i want a kid! imagine, kung magkakaanak ako the soonest possible time, ill be on my 50s bago sya maka graduate ng college.. too late na pala. i should have thought of this during my mid 20s.. i cannot turn back time.. before i always say i have no regrets.. now i realized meron pala.. sana noon ko pa inayos to.. i was always focused with the present not thinking what lies ahead..

bothered na utak ko kaya pinabangon ko na lang si moka at inutusang magluto ng sinigang.. again, i reached the same stage of wanting to give up a relationship with a person you dont want to loose.. pano kaya yun..

A sem-ender review II - April: Death of a Father-figure

Finally I got the chance to go to

Seoul

… why? I promised a good friend of mine, Jan Michelle, that I’ll meet her pag nagbakasyon sila dito sa

Korea

. Last holy week, they went to

Seoul

& I grabbed that once-in-a-lifetime chance na magkita kami abroad… ang daming first-times hahaha… it was my first time to travel far alone… tinotoyo na mga SAs ko kasi ayaw akong payagang magbyahe mag-isa. They want to accompany me but they have sched in campus, they don’t want to help me on how to go to Seoul para di ako matuloy but I really want to see her so I decided to call Emong, my online friend from Seoul, so ayun, natuloy rin ako and my SAs had no option but to help me na rin haha… 

‘Twas really fun. I met Jan’s family. After that, Emong & I met in person for the first time & he invited me over to his house. Wow, feels like home, maraming pinoy sa paligid nila… di nakaka homesick sa lugar nila… I met a lot of pinoys there.  That night we went to a friends house, then went to disco & mostly pinoys ang pumupunta… the next day, we went to hyewa & para ka lang nasa baclaran! After that we went to a theme park… sad to say, I had to go back to Daegu… so umuwi akong baon ang masasayang ala-ala naks!

One Friday morning of the same month, my SA called me & informed me that my Dean died… my dean whom I treated as my second father. He treated me no less than his child. Sa kanila pa nga ako nag spend ng Chinese New Year & here, they solemnly celebrate it only to close family members. At first, hindi ko ramdam ang news, yeah I do believe him but the emotion doesn’t sink to my heart, nasa isip ko pa lang… after lunch I went to my office & the moment I stepped inside our building, dun ko naramdaman na sh!t totoo to… my heart began to beat fast, my body is shaking, I felt cold, most people I came across with are wearing black & teary-eyed… tears burst as soon as I entered my office. He died because of car accident, he was hit by a drunk driver – a very meaningless death for a very good person like him. Ganun lang pala yun… when death strikes balewala na ang lahat, death doesn’t consider your profession, your education, lahat ng ninanais nating ma-achieve. I was thinking that a person like him deserves a heroic or at least a meaningful death but I was wrong. Whatever your position, educational attainment, social & professional status, sa mata ni kamatayan pare-pareho lang tayong tao. I’m so touched kasi yung ibang profs kinakamusta ako if I’m ok. They know that I’m very much affected. The new dean told me that I should not worry coz he will take care of me same with the care given by my ex-dean. Though Prof. Jang is not here anymore, I will forever thank him for everything he did to me. His memory will forever remain in my & my family’s hearts.

A sem-ender review II - April: Death of a Father-figure

Finally I got the chance to go to

Seoul

… why? I promised a good friend of mine, Jan Michelle, that I’ll meet her pag nagbakasyon sila dito sa

Korea

. Last holy week, they went to

Seoul

& I grabbed that once-in-a-lifetime chance na magkita kami abroad… ang daming first-times hahaha… it was my first time to travel far alone… tinotoyo na mga SAs ko kasi ayaw akong payagang magbyahe mag-isa. They want to accompany me but they have sched in campus, they don’t want to help me on how to go to Seoul para di ako matuloy but I really want to see her so I decided to call Emong, my online friend from Seoul, so ayun, natuloy rin ako and my SAs had no option but to help me na rin haha… 

‘Twas really fun. I met Jan’s family. After that, Emong & I met in person for the first time & he invited me over to his house. Wow, feels like home, maraming pinoy sa paligid nila… di nakaka homesick sa lugar nila… I met a lot of pinoys there.  That night we went to a friends house, then went to disco & mostly pinoys ang pumupunta… the next day, we went to hyewa & para ka lang nasa baclaran! After that we went to a theme park… sad to say, I had to go back to Daegu… so umuwi akong baon ang masasayang ala-ala naks!

One Friday morning of the same month, my SA called me & informed me that my Dean died… my dean whom I treated as my second father. He treated me no less than his child. Sa kanila pa nga ako nag spend ng Chinese New Year & here, they solemnly celebrate it only to close family members. At first, hindi ko ramdam ang news, yeah I do believe him but the emotion doesn’t sink to my heart, nasa isip ko pa lang… after lunch I went to my office & the moment I stepped inside our building, dun ko naramdaman na sh!t totoo to… my heart began to beat fast, my body is shaking, I felt cold, most people I came across with are wearing black & teary-eyed… tears burst as soon as I entered my office. He died because of car accident, he was hit by a drunk driver – a very meaningless death for a very good person like him. Ganun lang pala yun… when death strikes balewala na ang lahat, death doesn’t consider your profession, your education, lahat ng ninanais nating ma-achieve. I was thinking that a person like him deserves a heroic or at least a meaningful death but I was wrong. Whatever your position, educational attainment, social & professional status, sa mata ni kamatayan pare-pareho lang tayong tao. I’m so touched kasi yung ibang profs kinakamusta ako if I’m ok. They know that I’m very much affected. The new dean told me that I should not worry coz he will take care of me same with the care given by my ex-dean. Though Prof. Jang is not here anymore, I will forever thank him for everything he did to me. His memory will forever remain in my & my family’s hearts.

A sem-ender review I : Prelude

I told myself that I will update my blog later this month but I don’t know what happened ‘coz after taking my dinner & listening to mellow music, it brought back the urge to post all my pending articles…

Wow, 3 months lang pala ang nakalipas but it seems like years already… for sure, this semester is one of the most unforgettable phase of my life… gained friends, lost some… so far, the happiest moment of my korean life… as the semester is nearing its end, let me share significant events that happened this semester…

March: A New Adjustment

Start of another semester, new set of students thus, new set of friends… kala ko it will be easier ‘coz it’s my second year here in

korea

but I was wrong… it felt like it’s my first year again ‘coz everything is new… thought I’ll teach the same subject, I had to give it a different approach to level it with my students… haaay, I had to make new sets of lectures, re-focus my target expertise for the subject… 

I met a couple of new friends sa katauhan ng mga ne student assistants ko & friends nila who eventually became my friends too… it’s quite awkward kc ang isa kong SA eh mas matanda sakin ng 2 taon… I met the new students of

Andong

University

, ang mga kababayan kong nag-aaral dito, taking their master’s degree to give a better quality of education to pinoy students (nga ba?!)… something that I want to do but not now, maybe in due time I’ll go back to Pinas & share what I’ve learned here… itong mga kababayan kong ito ay may kanya-kanya ring drama sa buhay… living abroad is not always a bed of roses, kami ang mga buhay na patotoo.. I’m not saying that I’m not well treated here ‘coz I am… let me quote my sis “ano pa ba ang gusto mo? Nasa’yo na lahat ng hinahanap ng sino mang employee…” yeah she’s right but those are just material things & usually superficial… kahit maraming taong nakapaligid sayo, as long as you’re in another country, you will still feel that you’re different from them… my Canadian friend was right, he said “I”ve been here for 4 years and I’m still adjusting…”

something new to offer…

woke up a bit late, early for my schedule though… past lunch time already & i found myself too tired to cook for my breakfast, hmmnnn, cigarette & coffee will do. I’ll probably take my lunch in downtown with Mok-a later.

last night i enjoyed dinner with my co-profs and of course they dont treat me like the way White was treated in CvSU. I really felt like I’m one of them - i may not be Korean by race, nationality & everything, but I feel like Korean through their acceptance. Im lucky for not experiencing the discrimination often felt by some Pinoys in other countries. After eating raw fish, live octopus, and other raw meats (and they’re so happy to see me enjoying the food they also enjoy ‘coz it’s one way of showing them that I am not just respecting but also embracing their culture) we went to BeSeTo Business Club. It’s a class-A norebang with girls assisting & serving you everything (except their body huh!) I was asked to sing and am really surprised to see a Pinoy Song Book there. Hmmnnn, i know that they wont be able to relate if i’ll sing OPM song so i sang foreign song & there i was standing in front embraced by other profs while the whole crowd sings with me. euphoria! They even asked me to sing Anak (FYI: Anak gained popularity when it was hailed as best composition in a song writing contest here in korea), I cant help but smile while singing it! im looking forward to go out with them again ‘coz they promised to treat me "again" in a raw tuna resto.

as usual, i browsed for new videos of aicelle… dang! what’s with you aicelle?! ang cute nya hahaha crush ko na sya hahaha. i highly recommend watching this video : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v3ZsO-qdojk&search=Aicelle sorry but i dont wanna clip the video here ‘coz it will consume much space. I never imagined Aicelle singing Though The Fire which burned the next singer who sounded like a-nose-with-a-voice. The next video was a flawless performance: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x6cZdCLCChc&search=Aicelle with her talents, she will surely last in music industry. Watch it and be impressed. This video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LmpIe9RyELY&search=Aicelle shows what a quality group performance is, unlike group performaces of the singing champions (i like them too) who’s trying to outshine each other while singing & in general - sounds like a total mess… it’s just an evidence of decreasing vocal quality & singing prowess of winners from abscbn. alam na lang nila now eh mag pacute which is leading to growing dissatisfaction of viewers as evidenced by abscbn blogsite entries. im not a gma7 fan but im starting to be one.

these are few reasons why i never get tired browsing aicelle’s videos ‘coz she always has something new to offer to her audience…