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Start na naman ng sem… what’s new? well, my 3 SAs are minding their own stuffs now, edward is busy in ezone, making it his own dominion for his helpless followers; gab is busy with his work as web advertiser of yeungjin and open-lab staff; sik decided to stay in my office ‘coz of his dragging sched. Sya? well strangers again. Sad nga lang kasi nasira yung friendship nang buong tropa, nahati kami sa ilang groups and merong naiwang nag-iisa, matatanda na kaming lahat, choice na rin nila ‘yun. Sometimes i cant help to blame myself for being so selfish, or shall i say 3 kaming selfish which led to this, nadamay lang ang ibang tropa. It still hurst kc i have to deal with them everyday. I’m thankful meron na akong mga kababayan dito sa YJC. They’ve been here for almost a week now. Weird nga eh kasi pagnakikita ko silang sama-sama, i feel sad bakit di ako pwedeng maki-join.

I was offered to transfer to another house. It’s a bit smaller though but i might accept the offer for the following reasons: first, i’ll be close to other pinoys so i wont be that homesick anymore though it may start unlearning & eventually hating korean way of living. second, they are giving me a good deal in return for sacrificing the privacy, good view & comfort of my current pad. but most of all, i want to move to completely leave everything behind.. forget the mem’ries of my pad. you all know naman the effort i made to make drastic  changes to my pad but still the mem’ry is there and it kills me when im alone. everytime solo ko ang haus, it reminds me na wala na sya. It’s not final yet and i’m trying to weigh my options. 

Niweyz la na yun, forget the past, anjan naman ulit si ex who’s willing to stay for life (daw).. siguro nga kami pa rin after ng lahat ng gulo. When i left pinas, i told myself that i wont be surprised if we still end up together and eto nga.

I came across this video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p8RQJQOwSd8 and ewan ko ba, i became emotional after hearing the song.. not the best performance, im not even a fan of songs like this, but i dont know. I guess there’s some sort of divine intervention haha or maybe ramdam mong galing sa puso yung lyrics and yung emotions nila while singing the song. Goosebumps. It’s an original composition of Yeng, scholar of Pinoy Dream Academy. Here’s the lyrics:

Hawak Kamay

Minsan madarama mo
Kaybigat ng problema
At minsan mahihirapan ka at masasabing
Di ko na kaya

Tumingin ka lang sa langit
Magbaka sakaling may masumpungan
‘Di kaya ako’y tawagin
Malalaman mo na kahit kailan

Hawak kamay di kita iiwan sa paglakbay
Dito sa mundong walang katiyakan
Hawak kamay di kita bibitawan sa paglalakbay
Sa mundo ng kawalan

Minsan madarama mo
ang mundo’y bumubuhos sa ilalim ng ‘yong mga paa
At ang agos ng problema ay
tinatangay ka

Tumingin ka lang sa langit
Magbaka sakaling may masumpungan
‘Di kaya ako’y tawagin
Malalaman mo na kahit kailan

Hawak kamay di kita iiwan sa paglakbay
Dito sa mundong walang katiyakan
Hawak kamay di kita bibitawan sa paglalakbay
Sa mundo ng kawalan

Huwag mong sabihing nag-iisa ka
Laging isiping may makakasama
Narito ako oh ho oh
Narito ako…