my journey ends here…

"there’s a rainbow always after the rain…" got it from south border

"kung saan pinakamadilim ang langit, dun pinaka malapit sumikat ang araw" by cristy fermin

believe it or not, those short phrases kept me sane during my low moments.. a lot of people told me that i’m so lucky and successful but i find it too shallow basing luck & success to superficial things only. i said a couple of times that i feel so so so incomplete in spite of the fact that some people find it envious to be where i am now, some of my friends even told me that i was never satisfied - but again, they referred my satisfaction to extraneous stuffs which im not really fond of. dont get me wrong, i feel blessed though and am very thankful for that.

i only want simple things in life.. i want to live life to the fullest, enjoy every bit of it, live each day of my life as if it’s my last. that’s it. i dont want to prepare for my futre ‘coz im no longer afraid of anything. why will i sacrifice my "present" if im uncertain if there will still be "tomorrow"?

yeah, i know what i have and i know what i want.. i want very simple things and right now, i can almost hold the realization of my dreams.

i want to be happy in my profession, so far im blessed with kind students. they may be not that good but at least we can meet at the middle. they never failed to appreciate my efforts and make me feel like im worthy to stay here. some are not my students anymore but we’re still friends.

i wanna be happy in my workplace and He sent 13 pinoy angels here whom i can share good laughs with. i have supportive officemates. some used to be villain but miracles do happen.

i want my parents to be happy and i know they are. few hours from now, they will be here right beside me. no more staying up late. im sure they will enjoy their stay here away from gossips, stressful news, deranged neighbors, and other factors that pulls you down.

i wanna have a good relationship, something that is worth fighting for. right now, i am sharing happy moments with the person i really wanted but i know i cant keep, and i have someone waiting for me and we both promised to make our relationship work against all odds.

i wanna be happy here in korea, i have friends - koreans, pinoys from all over korea, and other nationalities. i have good job and an ok working environment ‘coz i finally patch the gap between me and my immediate boss. i’ll have my family here with me and my favorite cousin accompanying them. i finally won back the person i love the most.

things finally fell to its proper places. i know im happy. i can say that im satisfied. as they say, some people waits a lifetime for a moment like this.

what draws my attention now is that when you’re up, there’s no other way but to go down.. i must get myself ready for the blow.. i have idea of the next burst but i do wish im wrong.. whatever it is, being here to where i am now and how im feeling right now is worth the fall..